Over the last year or so I’ve been interested in “ego-death” and what that actually means. I’ve been fascinated by our apparent ‘addiction’ to pain and fear and how that seems to link to our mentally constructed versions of reality which create our perception of ourselves and the world.

When our idea of what life should be like or who we should be doesn’t match our reality it creates pain and suffering, individually and collectively.

From my perspective, if you strip back every choice we make in life, underneath each of those choices is either love or fear. We either move towards something because it feels right or we move away from something in an attempt to avoid feeling something we don’t want to feel.

If there’s something for us to heal or a shadow part of us to be loved and integrated, our unconscious mind will keep creating similar experiences for us to acknowledge that and do the work, until we listen.

So what if it was all happening perfectly? What if it was all inviting us to surrender to what ‘is’ so we can love our whole self – mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually – in order to evolve our consciousness and replace the ego identity with a higher functioning new self?

What if the pain and fear were transmuted through feeling and understanding of ourselves in support of us letting go of the mental constructs and accessing our higher self and, in turn, co-creating a more harmonious world?

I often say, the more I learn the less I know and, because I love learning about life, the universe and more I describe my learning as sticking more ‘stuff’ to the Velcro that’s already there. So when I read this brilliant book by Steve Taylor, that belief was embedded even more and I stuck more stuff to my Velcro.

The work I do in helping clients reconnect with their bodies to feel and release stuck trauma, and limiting beliefs and perceptions which were created as a result of those experiences, supports them to connect with their true self. It supports them to feel safe to be in their bodies and be a container to feel and release whatever emotions flow through them so they don’t have to consciously or unconsciously avoid parts of themselves which they learnt weren’t loveable.

But my understanding of the many real experiences that Steve  shares in this book are of individuals who had their ego-identities smashed apart through traumatic experiences, which enabled them to connect with their higher self and the true version of themselves; what I would describe as being re-directed onto the right path for them – their soul path. A new path and a new identity which then doesn’t carry any of the trauma imprints of their previous identity.

Prior to reading Steve’s book, I would have questioned whether someone who had seemingly spontaneously created a new higher functioning identity had actually released the trauma from their body or whether it was dissociation or avoidance. But the profound sense of peace and acceptance of themselves that the individuals seem to experience would suggest it’s neither.

A cancer diagnosis in 2020 forced me onto a deep healing journey which undoubtedly was a re-direction onto my soul path. Whether that constitutes a spontaneous ‘ego-death’ or a rather a slow demise, I’m not sure 😊.

Either way, our thoughts and our beliefs are electromagnetic in nature, create our individual reality and co-create our collective reality. We are part of nature, not separate from it. If we heal ourselves and respect ourselves and each other, we have the ability to create a better reality.

Thank you for writing this book, Steve. I’m looking forward to learning more.

With love as always.

Sarah xx